With no one practically following me, I will probably make this a journal profile. Having spent time learning Java, although not done. Spent time learning RPG Maker VX Ace, never finished any projects. Learning Unity Engine now, learning Space Shooter. Took the time to learn how to use Source Filmmaker, never made a long enough video. Took the time to learn Blender, never even finished making a model.

I get inspiration for stuff and I never get around to finishing anything. I even wrote stories but never finished them. I'd been doing things for so long, switching between programs and projects that I don't get praise for what does get done. I'm tired of being told that something will only be done on the side. That everyone else only sees me having an already established job as my future.

I've had different things put in front of me in the past and they wanted me to learn how to use those things and then show them how to do it. That doesn't work with me because I see no interest in learning them. Except for DOS for Dummies. But I ended up not finishing because the lessons in the book tackled something that wasn't even there. The book was outdated. This has been one of my issues, outdated information. To even get all the right materials for outdated information was impossible.

Currently, I've tried getting other people involved in my interests, hoping that they would help, but nothing. So far, I only have 3 other people included but I don't have any word on progress. I don't even get a word out of them every day. One guy is sick and the other guy is in legal trouble. The third guy is doing his own thing. As much as I am spending time watching youtube videos or browsing media sites, I still get reminded of things and I want to learn how to do more.

I want to finish this. I want to succeed before the year ends. I do not want to do this alone, yet I feel alone in my efforts. The only person who has shown any support for this is my dad. (I know I said earlier that I don't get praise, which is true.) My dad is the only one who sees me learning Java or working on these projects as a sign of making progress for a future. I would guess that my dads fear is me not being successful and independent. My dad being in his mid 50s and working as an operator in a refinery, he makes good money and a lot of that has gone into fixing 2 houses that will both be sold for a better house.

I need to know if people want to see a game that uses more traditional structure but gives players a lot of options.